The other day I saw this quote on Facebook,
In my case my bed is also the place where most often the reality of the tasks on my To Do list kicks in. Let us say one such revelation happened last night.
I so….didn’t want to break this news to you this way. 🙁 Remember the Old Lucketts Store Spring Market that I was gushing about all along; the place where I found the vintage movie reels, the lard can, and a ton of other stuff? Ever since the Old Lucketts Store announced the dates for this year’s Spring Market I’ve been making plans of going, only this time as a vendor instead of a shopper. Ya, you heard me right, as a vendor!
So for the last two weeks I have been making lists and lists of the things I could sell in my booth while battling fears on whether I’m even prepared to take the giant leap from a blogger to a store owner. To my amazement I came up with quite a few interesting ideas to fill up the booth complete with pricing schedules based on the cost and # of labor hrs! I told ya I’m a chronic planner. Before I get y’all excited, nope I’m not going ahead with those plans. 🙁
Why oh why would I strike down my long cherished goal of opening a store especially when I had the full support of my family and friends? It pains me to the point of actually tearing up while writing this to admit that I can’t after all do everything! This coming from a forever optimist who believes that she can do any thing in this world if she sets her mind to it (that is if you don’t count singing and dancing, I totally suck at those).
The Spring Market is not until May 18 -19, which is 3 months away. But to a full time working blogger mom that translates to 13 weekends out of which for 7 weekends nothing is gonna be done ’coz we have other social commitments. That leaves me with 6 weekends to work on projects for the market juggling baseball, soccer, dance, and God knows what.
Not too bad for a person who thrives under pressure. I’m one of those folks who procrastinate things (not any more ’coz nowadays I don’t even have time to procrastinate) till the last minute so I can get high on the pressure. I know, if I work my butt off I can get it done but at the expense of what? My time with my family, on home chores, on the blog, already dwindling sleeping hrs, my sanity……my life!
I’m borrowing a line from an article that I read recently; when talking about how working moms balance it all the author says, “There is no balance, only carefully controlled chaos.” This pretty much sums up my life too!
No worries, I’m not going anywhere. I love it the way it is now. Can’t even dream about not blogging. This daily têtê-a-têtê with you guys have been such a great creative, inspirational, and even a venting outlet for me. It is just that the whole idea of wading into new territories has been put on hold for now. 🙁
PS: I’m still kicking myself about the lost opportunity to actually make all the cool stuff I dreamed up. What the heck, I even bought a few things over the last 2 weekends so I could work on them! Maybe I should open an Etsy store? Then I can work at my own pace? What do you say? Ever had to give up on a dream? Was it tough coming to terms with it?
Somu (woodooz) says
Given the fact that you want to get the shop up so badly, it is really a difficult decision right ? But I should appreciate you for getting your priorities in place and not giving in. Am sure if you keep going at this pace, everything else will fall in place. Good luck.
For a moment I thought you were quitting blogging… and with that behind, I shall look forward to more of your inspiring stories here.
Thanks for all the support Somu. Really appreciate it.
Hey Vidya. I do understand not being able to do all that u want to get done:( But i think its wise of you to weigh the pros and cons(if i may say so) and make the right decision at this point. I am sure a time will come when u will have a shop of ur own – etsy or local markets. As disappointed as I am at loosing the chance to visit u at the market( guess “hamara nuber bhi ayyega”) 🙂 I happier that we’ll continue to enjoys ur amazing posts everyday.
Yup that is what I’m hoping too……One day! I’ll surely be going to this year’s market as shopper. Are you local? Then maybe we can meet up there or go together? I’m sure quite a few of my friends would like to join too..
Thanx Vidya. That was very sweet of you to suggest meeting up. Would love the oppurtunity to meet you. I live on the eastern shore of maryland currently but visit NVA often to visit family n indian store :).I have been planning a trip to the Luckett store ever since i first read about it on ur blog. If all goes well will let u know a couple of weeks before the market n then make plans:)
[email protected] says
well there is other place then bed where also I remembers my to do list is shower 🙂 I have started following your blog just a short time ago and I am amazed by all you do, who knows circumstance will change and you may soon live up your dream but for now I am happy that you are not quitting blogging as I love coming here.
Ha…ha….that is so true. I have one more place too which I have to admit is the best one to organize my thoughts, while driving back from work. 🙂 Thanks again for all the support. Means a lot to me.
Vidya, I am an optimist too. So I would take the stance of if not today, someday.
Thank you Meera.
Congratulations on being a vendor at the Spring Market!! I go every year and will certainly look for your booth – would love to meet you and say hello! This has also been a dream of mine…although I have to put that dream on hold for the moment, as I am working on carefully baking the bun in my oven. Best of luck with your preparations!
No, not this time around. Unfortunately have put the vendor plans on hold for now. Have way too much going on at the same time. Kids activities, in laws visiting etc. Hope to see you there as a shopper.
Oops, sorry Vidya. Apparently I didn’t read the entire post…how embarrassing! I am blaming that on pregnancy brain. Forgive me!